Life changes when extremes occur

Friday, April 8, 2011 71 comments

Hi, my names Edward and this is something I've always wanted to do during my free time. I guess I've always wanted to blog but never really got into it. Anyway, I will post at least once a day, if not more, for myself or anyone who finds pleasure in reading about my life, thoughts, and activities.

My Grandparents
My grandmother is in ICU under critical condition, and its been really hard to cope with all these emotional feelings I've been experiencing. Shes not even that old; mid-60's if I had to guess. I guess it might be a little harder for me since I've lived in the same house as her my whole life. It depresses me knowing the people I love won't be around forever. It scares me not knowing what is waiting for me when my time comes, if there is anything. I don't believe in God or any higher power, but this tragic event sure as hell made me think more about it. I also thought about something that I never pondered about before: my death. The time when I become old and sick, and have to cast myself away from everything and everyone that I've had feelings for in my lifetime. I've wondered about who would take the time to come to my funeral and who would cry at it. What would people drop into my grave, if anything. My grandmother's ending life opened my eyes and created an altered mindset for me. I guess everyone goes through this at one point in their life. I guess there comes a time where you have to accept that nothing lasts forever in this mortal world. People have expiration dates just like the cream I put in my coffee.

Memories flow through my mind every waking minute nowadays. Memories of when I was a kid. How my grandmother used to walk me around the block everyday or how she let me eat my favorite homemade soup in the living room so I wouldn't miss ten seconds of my favorite cartoon. Those were the days. The days I didn't realize that this wouldn't last forever. I was taking those times for granted, not knowing that one day, she won't be there, cooking my favorite dish in the kitchen while I ran up and down the hallway. I already miss her.

71 Comments

  1. doomsdayApril 8, 2011 at 9:39 PM

    best of luck with your blog, bro! :)

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  2. KidefenceApril 8, 2011 at 9:45 PM

    Best of luck on your grandmother and good luck on your blog.

    I know exactly how you feel bro.

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  3. UnknownApril 8, 2011 at 10:07 PM

    @doomsday Thanks man, glad you're following.

    @Cornflakes Thanks, its been a rough month. Good luck with your blog as well.

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  4. KelApril 9, 2011 at 12:49 AM

    I knew a guy that had cancer of the mouth and didn't smoke or chew a day in his life. When he found out it had relapsed he lived life to the fullest and didn't care what anyone thought. Death may be unavoidable, but we sure can enjoy the time we have left.

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  5. Danny MurphyApril 9, 2011 at 1:00 AM

    Sorry to hear about your grandmother, I went through a similar experience about 2 years ago so I know how hard it is.

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  6. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 1:10 AM

    @Kel Well said man.

    @Danny Murphy Yeah it sucks to have to go through this, but luckily everyone's giving me support. Thank you man.

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  7. AnonymousApril 9, 2011 at 2:26 AM

    true. Politics too.

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  8. Max BrawnApril 9, 2011 at 2:26 AM

    Sorry to hear man. Like Kel said, enjoy it why it lasts :)

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  9. -M-April 9, 2011 at 2:54 AM

    Sorry to hear about your grandma. Welcome to the bloggers-family

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  10. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 3:03 AM

    @Jase I am :)

    @-M- Thanks man, I'm really enjoying the community!

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  11. BremsyApril 9, 2011 at 3:06 AM

    Welcome to the community ...my grandpa had cancer he cured it and died 6 months later in a car crash...:(

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  12. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 3:15 AM

    @Janez Thanks, and I'm sorry for your loss. Keep strong!

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  13. JohnApril 9, 2011 at 3:30 AM

    Hope you're dealing with your losses well. My grandma meant a lot to me too.

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  14. Aamir MuhammadApril 9, 2011 at 3:33 AM

    It sure does.

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  15. fabio_2007April 9, 2011 at 3:35 AM

    good luck man

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  16. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 3:37 AM

    @John Trying to man. It's really hard to go through something like this.

    @fabio_2007 Thanks for following :) Goodluck to you too, I'll be reading your blog!

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  17. JessyApril 9, 2011 at 7:00 AM

    how true.....

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  18. dsApril 9, 2011 at 11:06 AM

    It's so true that people often don't appreciate the good times until they are gone. Good luck with your blog!

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  19. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 11:07 AM

    @ds Yeah, people take things for granted every single day. It's sort of depressing. Thanks man, you too! :)

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  20. The RobApril 9, 2011 at 11:22 AM

    hope your grandma gets better. Good luck!

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  21. n0kS Phr33d0mApril 9, 2011 at 11:24 AM

    Good luck bro.

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  22. JessiApril 9, 2011 at 11:27 AM

    thanks for this blog

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  23. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 11:27 AM

    @Douglas Thanks man it really means a lot.

    @n0kS Thanks, good luck to you too.

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  24. Vague RaconteurApril 9, 2011 at 11:27 AM

    Feeling for you. I hope she gets better man.
    Following!

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  25. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 11:34 AM

    @Vague Thanks man, I hope so too. I'll also return with a follow :)

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  26. RemiApril 9, 2011 at 11:42 AM

    Just remember that everyone passes some day, there is just nothing we can about it, and the fact that you retain those memories shows how much you care about her

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  27. HofoApril 9, 2011 at 11:46 AM

    best of luck to you and your grandmother man
    hang on

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  28. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 11:48 AM

    @Remi Death is inevitable, and I guess I just realized its bound to happen to everyone. Thanks for the support.

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  29. AnonymousApril 9, 2011 at 11:48 AM

    Good luck

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  30. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 11:49 AM

    @Hofo Thanks bud it really helps hearing all this support. And I'll definitely keep hanging in there! :)

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  31. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 11:49 AM

    @Forctis Thanks man, you too :)

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  32. after3April 9, 2011 at 12:17 PM

    very astute.

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  33. WolleApril 9, 2011 at 12:24 PM

    Man good louck to you

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  34. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 12:25 PM

    @after3 Haha thanks. I try to make the best out of what I have.

    @Wolle Thanks man it means a lot!

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  35. BennyBeatzApril 9, 2011 at 12:32 PM

    that was a really great read man thanks for posting and good luck on your blog!

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  36. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 12:33 PM

    @BennyBeatz Thanks man, just spilling out my thoughts. Good luck to you too :)

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  37. AnonymousApril 9, 2011 at 12:50 PM

    Sorry man. Life's rough and I hope your grandma makes it. Cherish everything you've got!

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  38. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 12:54 PM

    @Kempai Thanks dude. Support much appreciated :)

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  39. DisposedCheeseApril 9, 2011 at 12:57 PM

    I hope your grandma stays around. This was a great read. Keep up with your blog. Nice first post.

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  40. AnonymousApril 9, 2011 at 1:00 PM

    Deep stuff. All the best.

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  41. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 1:16 PM

    @DisposedCheese Thanks man I'm going full throttle into this blog thing :)

    @Dave Zande Thanks :) I try not to be too deep, or I confuse myself haha.

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  42. Come At Me BroApril 9, 2011 at 1:45 PM

    This is great!

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  43. Sasha WolfApril 9, 2011 at 1:57 PM

    Got me thinking about my grandparents and how I miss 'em. I feel you :\

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  44. Megan HansenApril 9, 2011 at 1:59 PM

    Good luck man, wish you the best with your blog :)

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  45. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 2:01 PM

    @Come At Me Bro Thanks :)

    @Sasha Wolf Sorry about your grandparents. Its hard to deal with losing anyone.

    @Megan Hansen Good luck to you too :)

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  46. FizzyfaceApril 9, 2011 at 2:08 PM

    Wish you all the best!

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  47. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 2:09 PM

    @Fizzyface Thanks man you too :)

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  48. AnonymousApril 9, 2011 at 2:36 PM

    GOod for you. you seem like a pretty cool guy.

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  49. KamranApril 9, 2011 at 2:58 PM

    Sorry about your grandma =(. +following

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  50. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 3:06 PM

    @Beggers Thanks :) So does yourself

    @Kamran It's okay man. And thanks!

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  51. GregApril 9, 2011 at 3:21 PM

    Sorry to hear about that, wish you and your grandma all the best!

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  52. FreddyApril 9, 2011 at 3:27 PM

    have fun, your blog looks nice

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  53. 1HipHopBlogApril 9, 2011 at 3:36 PM

    Nice blog, 1+ follower.

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  54. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 3:40 PM

    @Greg Thanks Greg, good luck to you and your blog!

    @Freddy Haha thanks man I try to keep it minimalistic

    @1HipHopBlog Thanks :)

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  55. XPSMcLarenApril 9, 2011 at 3:40 PM

    Keep your had up man, life has a way of working things out.

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  56. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 3:41 PM

    @XPSMcLaren Thanks for the support :) I'll keep that in mind.

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  57. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 3:52 PM

    Sorry about your grandma, just be glad that you knew and loved her.

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  58. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 3:56 PM

    @Jozzy I am, thanks for your support :)

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  59. ShonaApril 9, 2011 at 4:00 PM

    Welcome to blogspot! ;)


    Following :)

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  60. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 4:03 PM

    @Shona THANKS for the warm welcome :)

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  61. AlphaApril 9, 2011 at 4:10 PM

    I'm certain she misses you just as much as you miss her.

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  62. UnknownApril 9, 2011 at 4:14 PM

    @Alpha I'm certain of it alpha. Thanks for the support!

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  63. ChazWellingtonApril 9, 2011 at 4:17 PM

    blogging is a great way to vent because what you say will never come back to haunt you. unless you show her your blog.

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  64. BMApril 9, 2011 at 4:20 PM

    nice blog, keep it up

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  65. NickApril 9, 2011 at 4:20 PM

    Sorry man, good luck on your blog.

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  66. MontanaApril 9, 2011 at 4:31 PM

    Man, this reminds me of when my gramps passed away. I thought i was so prepared for the news (i had been ready for it for weeks) but when that day came, i almost broke down.

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  67. MikeApril 10, 2011 at 2:31 AM

    I hope she gets better.

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  68. UnknownApril 10, 2011 at 2:31 AM

    @Mike Thanks man

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  69. A70 8TracApril 10, 2011 at 7:10 PM

    best of luck in regards to your grandmother and with your blog

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  70. Jok3rApril 10, 2011 at 7:44 PM

    Welcome to blogger, hope your blog goes on the right way ;)

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  71. JohnApril 12, 2011 at 10:29 PM

    Good luck dude, sorry to hear.

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