Life changes when extremes occur

Hi, my names Edward and this is something I've always wanted to do during my free time. I guess I've always wanted to blog but never really got into it. Anyway, I will post at least once a day, if not more, for myself or anyone who finds pleasure in reading about my life, thoughts, and activities.

My Grandparents
My grandmother is in ICU under critical condition, and its been really hard to cope with all these emotional feelings I've been experiencing. Shes not even that old; mid-60's if I had to guess. I guess it might be a little harder for me since I've lived in the same house as her my whole life. It depresses me knowing the people I love won't be around forever. It scares me not knowing what is waiting for me when my time comes, if there is anything. I don't believe in God or any higher power, but this tragic event sure as hell made me think more about it. I also thought about something that I never pondered about before: my death. The time when I become old and sick, and have to cast myself away from everything and everyone that I've had feelings for in my lifetime. I've wondered about who would take the time to come to my funeral and who would cry at it. What would people drop into my grave, if anything. My grandmother's ending life opened my eyes and created an altered mindset for me. I guess everyone goes through this at one point in their life. I guess there comes a time where you have to accept that nothing lasts forever in this mortal world. People have expiration dates just like the cream I put in my coffee.

Memories flow through my mind every waking minute nowadays. Memories of when I was a kid. How my grandmother used to walk me around the block everyday or how she let me eat my favorite homemade soup in the living room so I wouldn't miss ten seconds of my favorite cartoon. Those were the days. The days I didn't realize that this wouldn't last forever. I was taking those times for granted, not knowing that one day, she won't be there, cooking my favorite dish in the kitchen while I ran up and down the hallway. I already miss her.

72 Comments

  1. best of luck with your blog, bro! :)

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  2. Best of luck on your grandmother and good luck on your blog.

    I know exactly how you feel bro.

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  3. @doomsday Thanks man, glad you're following.

    @Cornflakes Thanks, its been a rough month. Good luck with your blog as well.

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  4. I knew a guy that had cancer of the mouth and didn't smoke or chew a day in his life. When he found out it had relapsed he lived life to the fullest and didn't care what anyone thought. Death may be unavoidable, but we sure can enjoy the time we have left.

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  5. Sorry to hear about your grandmother, I went through a similar experience about 2 years ago so I know how hard it is.

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  6. @Kel Well said man.

    @Danny Murphy Yeah it sucks to have to go through this, but luckily everyone's giving me support. Thank you man.

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  7. Sorry to hear man. Like Kel said, enjoy it why it lasts :)

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  8. Sorry to hear about your grandma. Welcome to the bloggers-family

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  9. @Jase I am :)

    @-M- Thanks man, I'm really enjoying the community!

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  10. Welcome to the community ...my grandpa had cancer he cured it and died 6 months later in a car crash...:(

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  11. @Janez Thanks, and I'm sorry for your loss. Keep strong!

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  12. Hope you're dealing with your losses well. My grandma meant a lot to me too.

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  13. @John Trying to man. It's really hard to go through something like this.

    @fabio_2007 Thanks for following :) Goodluck to you too, I'll be reading your blog!

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  14. It's so true that people often don't appreciate the good times until they are gone. Good luck with your blog!

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  15. @ds Yeah, people take things for granted every single day. It's sort of depressing. Thanks man, you too! :)

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  16. hope your grandma gets better. Good luck!

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  17. @Douglas Thanks man it really means a lot.

    @n0kS Thanks, good luck to you too.

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  18. Feeling for you. I hope she gets better man.
    Following!

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  19. @Vague Thanks man, I hope so too. I'll also return with a follow :)

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  20. Just remember that everyone passes some day, there is just nothing we can about it, and the fact that you retain those memories shows how much you care about her

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  21. best of luck to you and your grandmother man
    hang on

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  22. @Remi Death is inevitable, and I guess I just realized its bound to happen to everyone. Thanks for the support.

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  23. @Hofo Thanks bud it really helps hearing all this support. And I'll definitely keep hanging in there! :)

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  24. @after3 Haha thanks. I try to make the best out of what I have.

    @Wolle Thanks man it means a lot!

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  25. that was a really great read man thanks for posting and good luck on your blog!

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  26. @BennyBeatz Thanks man, just spilling out my thoughts. Good luck to you too :)

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  27. Sorry man. Life's rough and I hope your grandma makes it. Cherish everything you've got!

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  28. @Kempai Thanks dude. Support much appreciated :)

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  29. I hope your grandma stays around. This was a great read. Keep up with your blog. Nice first post.

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  30. @DisposedCheese Thanks man I'm going full throttle into this blog thing :)

    @Dave Zande Thanks :) I try not to be too deep, or I confuse myself haha.

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  31. Got me thinking about my grandparents and how I miss 'em. I feel you :\

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  32. Good luck man, wish you the best with your blog :)

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  33. @Come At Me Bro Thanks :)

    @Sasha Wolf Sorry about your grandparents. Its hard to deal with losing anyone.

    @Megan Hansen Good luck to you too :)

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  34. GOod for you. you seem like a pretty cool guy.

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  35. Sorry about your grandma =(. +following

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  36. @Beggers Thanks :) So does yourself

    @Kamran It's okay man. And thanks!

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  37. Sorry to hear about that, wish you and your grandma all the best!

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  38. have fun, your blog looks nice

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  39. @Greg Thanks Greg, good luck to you and your blog!

    @Freddy Haha thanks man I try to keep it minimalistic

    @1HipHopBlog Thanks :)

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  40. Keep your had up man, life has a way of working things out.

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  41. @XPSMcLaren Thanks for the support :) I'll keep that in mind.

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  42. Sorry about your grandma, just be glad that you knew and loved her.

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  43. @Jozzy I am, thanks for your support :)

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  44. Welcome to blogspot! ;)


    Following :)

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  45. @Shona THANKS for the warm welcome :)

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  46. I'm certain she misses you just as much as you miss her.

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  47. @Alpha I'm certain of it alpha. Thanks for the support!

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  48. blogging is a great way to vent because what you say will never come back to haunt you. unless you show her your blog.

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  49. Sorry man, good luck on your blog.

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  50. Man, this reminds me of when my gramps passed away. I thought i was so prepared for the news (i had been ready for it for weeks) but when that day came, i almost broke down.

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  51. best of luck in regards to your grandmother and with your blog

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  52. Welcome to blogger, hope your blog goes on the right way ;)

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  53. Good luck dude, sorry to hear.

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  54. Good luck with the blog! Hopefully things will take a turn for the better bub

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